The Third Winter

22. 10. 2012

Long time no see. Write, I mean. Or read.

I decided to get back to my electronic keyboard for the special occasion of celebrating the second anniversary of this online establishment known as Lime Reviews and Strawberry Confessions.

In the last few weeks, I have not been giving this blog much thought - and at the same time, I think I have. Perhaps unconsciously. As you can see, I have not been writing much which has to do with this, obviously. 

Let's start from the beginning. I did a lot of traveling lately. And I spent a lot of time with friends and my sister who is sometimes a friend and other times an enemy. Anyhow, I realized that I myself have changed a lot from when I started this blog two years ago. Of course, like any teenager out there, I have somehow "found myself" and so on, I have grown wiser (?) and I have read more books, seen more movies, listened to more music and thought about more stuff. But there is another change: I don't need that much time alone anymore. 

No, no, that's the wrong expression. I need more time with other people, actually. Perhaps it's a phase... I really can't say. I just like talking to other people more often than before. Guess that's good. Though probably it's neither good nor bad, just different. Anyhow. I started seeing things in a more relaxed kind of way. So what if I'm not going to write a novel or direct a movie - it doesn't really matter. What I want is to do what I want, and I don't want to want stuff that I think I have to want anymore. Sounds a bit more serious than it really is - it's not like I was some maniac before, I just sometimes had this idea that I needed to "do" something. Create something, perhaps. And what I realized is that this something can be anything, it's not really defined in any way. 

So that was my long ramble which you probably just skimmed over, but I had to get it off my soul. It might sound to you as if I wanted to close this blog or at least have a hiatus. I thought about that, yes. Because I want to focus on school, and I want to do some other things that I feel like doing right now. I don't want to think every evening that "Oh, I wonder if I'll have time to watch a movie". I don't want to obsess about that. 

What I want is to think "Hey, I'm finished with sports and home work and I feel like watching a movie". Perhaps this is going to happen almost every evening, perhaps just every second or third. It doesn't matter. I spent a long time watching a movie almost every evening, and it was good, but I need to want it again. And that might take time or it might never happen. 

This month, I've only seen very few movies, and it doesn't bother me. And that's where I'm heading at - what's best for me. That was the reason I started watching movies, right? That was the reason I started writing about them. And that's what I want to be the reason for every future thing I do. 

Now that we have this sorted out, I want to do something that I do a lot and enjoy a lot doing: I want to thank somebody. You. You, who are reading this right now. You, who make my stats rise and rise even when I write only one post in a month. You, who took the time to read something a 17-year old girl who's not sure whether she's Danish or German wrote. You, who even took the time to comment on some of it. 

Sometimes, I can't believe this is really happening. That this thing is something I created (!) with my own two hands. It's beautiful, I really think so. And - I know how cheesy this sounds - you have made it happen. 

Thank you. 

Well, here's to many more years of blogging. Be it one post per month, per week, or per day. Guess you all know, "Life's like a box of chocolates".