Wednesday, October 31, 2012

The Third Winter

22. 10. 2012

Long time no see. Write, I mean. Or read.

I decided to get back to my electronic keyboard for the special occasion of celebrating the second anniversary of this online establishment known as Lime Reviews and Strawberry Confessions.

In the last few weeks, I have not been giving this blog much thought - and at the same time, I think I have. Perhaps unconsciously. As you can see, I have not been writing much which has to do with this, obviously. 
Let's start from the beginning. I did a lot of traveling lately. And I spent a lot of time with friends and my sister who is sometimes a friend and other times an enemy. Anyhow, I realized that I myself have changed a lot from when I started this blog two years ago. Of course, like any teenager out there, I have somehow "found myself" and so on, I have grown wiser (?) and I have read more books, seen more movies, listened to more music and thought about more stuff. But there is another change: I don't need that much time alone anymore. 
No, no, that's the wrong expression. I need more time with other people, actually. Perhaps it's a phase... I really can't say. I just like talking to other people more often than before. Guess that's good. Though probably it's neither good nor bad, just different. Anyhow. I started seeing things in a more relaxed kind of way. So what if I'm not going to write a novel or direct a movie - it doesn't really matter. What I want is to do what I want, and I don't want to want stuff that I think I have to want anymore. Sounds a bit more serious than it really is - it's not like I was some maniac before, I just sometimes had this idea that I needed to "do" something. Create something, perhaps. And what I realized is that this something can be anything, it's not really defined in any way. 

So that was my long ramble which you probably just skimmed over, but I had to get it off my soul. It might sound to you as if I wanted to close this blog or at least have a hiatus. I thought about that, yes. Because I want to focus on school, and I want to do some other things that I feel like doing right now. I don't want to think every evening that "Oh, I wonder if I'll have time to watch a movie". I don't want to obsess about that. 
What I want is to think "Hey, I'm finished with sports and home work and I feel like watching a movie". Perhaps this is going to happen almost every evening, perhaps just every second or third. It doesn't matter. I spent a long time watching a movie almost every evening, and it was good, but I need to want it again. And that might take time or it might never happen. 
This month, I've only seen very few movies, and it doesn't bother me. And that's where I'm heading at - what's best for me. That was the reason I started watching movies, right? That was the reason I started writing about them. And that's what I want to be the reason for every future thing I do. 

Now that we have this sorted out, I want to do something that I do a lot and enjoy a lot doing: I want to thank somebody. You. You, who are reading this right now. You, who make my stats rise and rise even when I write only one post in a month. You, who took the time to read something a 17-year old girl who's not sure whether she's Danish or German wrote. You, who even took the time to comment on some of it. 
Sometimes, I can't believe this is really happening. That this thing is something I created (!) with my own two hands. It's beautiful, I really think so. And - I know how cheesy this sounds - you have made it happen. 
Thank you. 

Well, here's to many more years of blogging. Be it one post per month, per week, or per day. Guess you all know, "Life's like a box of chocolates".


20 comments:

  1. That is absolutely lovely, Mette. Possibly my favourite post from you. It's so honest, and well wise. Inspiring stuff.

    Happy blog anniversary :) :)

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  2. Congratulations! Partly on reaching two years of blogging, but mostly on reaching a balance that you're happy with. Life has quite enough actual obligations without imposing more on yourself, and things that should be fun, like reading or movie watching, shouldn't have any joy sucked out of them by a sense that they are things you should be doing. They should be an escape from all the things that you have to do, not additional obligations. Thank you for for the pleasure your blog has shared, and whatever comes, may as much of it as possible bring you joy.

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    1. That was a good description of what I'm thinking at the moment. Although I guess I wouldn't call books and movies etc. "escapes", they're more... sources of enrichment?

      Thanks for your kind comment :)

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  3. Happy Two Years!!

    I'm always amazed at how articulately you are able to express your thoughts, especially from someone so young, and I hope you continue to share them with us for many years to come.

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    1. Thanks, your comments always make me so happy.

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  4. I think that's a sensible path to go. Just blog whenever you feel like it, rather than feeling you HAVE to watch films and HAVE to review them on the blog. There's more to life than movies, right?!

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  5. Well, it certainly is a great post!! As a reader of your blog I will love if you write more often but what matters more is you should enjoy writing them. I have been blogging now for year and half and I still haven't even written 100 posts yet because that's the pace I am comfortable with and there is no point in rushing. Take your time, write at your own pace but keep writing. I guess that's all we can ask for.

    Happy Blogoversary BTW !! Here is to many more to come. :)

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    1. I'm so relieved that people are all right with my decision and there isn't any hating - or weeping for that matter - going on.
      Thanks, SDG :)

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  6. Congratulations on making it two years! It sounds you've found zen in your life :D

    Anyway I rate this post as: "Strawberry Explosion!"

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    1. Well, I guess that zen is a good word for it.

      Yay for the Strawberry Explosion!

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  7. This is fantastic. I wish I could have this view, but I always feel the necessity to blog and watch movies. That will go on the back-burner next year though, as I might become a prefect and I will be organising Stage Challenge, but hey, I can always come back!

    Anyway, I'm glad your willing to keep blogging. Well done for the two years! I'll be here whenever you write a new post.

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    1. Maybe we all sometimes wish we were someone else or had someone else's view. I, for that matter, used to have the feeling I should be wanting to work in the film industry - like you. But the more I think about it, the less I want to. Anyway, I think we should all be trying to find out who we are ourselves, and what we want ourselves.

      Thanks, Stevee :)

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  8. Happy Blog-a-versary Mette! Hey, I think it's totally fine that you only watch a few movies this month. I feel obligated sometimes because I have a movie blog but I realize that the reason I'm blogging in the first place is because I ENJOYED doing it. I think we shouldn't feel pressured doing it as it takes the fun out of everything. Here's to many more joyful years of blogging! :D

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    1. That's absolutely right!
      Thanks and same to you :)

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  9. Wow, this was really lovely to read! You expressed thoughts that I have certainly had before, and you're right - you should do things for you, and not worry about creating something. Things like that come with time, and them come when they need to.

    This is, without doubt, the best piece of writing I have read from you. Loved it.

    (And happy blogging anniversary, too!)

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    1. I wish there was more I could say, but all I can think of is: Thank you.

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  10. I've been like that lately... wanting to not come home, not because it's in any way bad, but because I enjoy being around people in college so much. It's a good thing, though I get home really late every day and only have time to comment on blogs (though I know this is a week later than it should be - I missed this post and saw the warning on Nikhat's thoughts of the week), not to write or watch films. I did see Bachelorette yesterday, but woke up with some nasty dark circles!

    I identify with what you said, and embracing the fact that life may not turn out as planned but that's okay anyway as long as we're the ones calling the shots is such a milestone of... growing-up, life? I don't know, I'm just three years older than you, it's not much. Anyway, it's a great thing, and I'm happy that you're happy and okay with where you are right now --- now *that's* a feeling not many people get to feel, sadly.

    Like everyone has said, it's a really nice post to read, and I don't know why but I feel like thanking you for writing it, is that weird...? Keep blogging as much as you'd like, I'll be here to read whatever you post --- and I don't skip paragraphs! Congratulations, Mette. :)

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    1. Wow, that was an honest comment. It's very interesting to hear/ read that you have the same feelings as me these days. I also like your remark that not many people are happy about their life... it's true. I wouldn't say I'm happy all the time but I kind of accept my life and I just, like I said, do what I want to do.

      Oh, I'm a bad person, I sometimes skip paragraphs when I'm bored or in a hurry - but great that you don't :)
      Thank you for your comment!

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